Mom's the word...

today's rant is actually not a rant...more of a reflection, and i hope you forgive if this gets too sugary...tomorrow lauren...my one and only...turns 21...i will spare you the "gee how did that happen?"...or "but i still feel 21!"...which i don't feel or look thanks to my being distracted these weeks, forgetting to see my colorist...creating a root crisis of epic grey proportion..i am feeling my candles these days..but this afternoon, as the hours lunge forward i remember those hours 21 years ago quite vividly, and the cavalcade of "mom" memories flash every time i close my eyes...every achievement, every disappointment, every "boo-boo", every giggle...all the minutes I wasted second-guessing my parenting skills...and in doing that almost missed the sheer joy...then forgetting to breathe since being a mom is much like being on a treadmill...one that never stops...but luckily we do stop it once in a while...catch our breath and then marvel at our handiwork...when i held all 6 pounds 12 ounces of her all those years ago, i wonder if i grasped what a miracle motherhood would be...and all the places we would go...