spring ahead...fall back...

i am the hamster on the wheel...as hard as i try to "spring ahead" it would seem the cards intend to have me "fall back"...for now...and so even as we delight in the extended warmth of almost mid-autumn...i feel the chill and seem the paralyzed poet, unable to write even the most banal of poems..."you're only as happy as your least happy child"...this filters through my remaining brain cells...that would be lauren, my only, who is suffering as we try to diagnose unremitting nausea and pain...days stretching to a week..then two...and so i am not so happy...they say timing is everything (yes, this is a blog post riddled with cliches)...starting a new job, albeit part-time, just as this crisis reared it's nasty head...sprinkle this with some manuscript and contest rejections...then the look on the clinique saleswoman's face as she tried to find a product that would cover the black circles under my eyes (this with a 35th high school reunion days away)...and there you have it...hamster on the wheel...running forward, falling back...hoping to jump, land and cut loose before the leaves fall...